The tumor just got bigger and more painful and they made me wait longer all for an extra 2 to 8 months. This isn't even the trial I wanted to do. The trial I want to do is suppose to be FDA approved end of this year. I couldn't wait any longer for nothing to be done and I went back to my own oncologist. But first I had to tell everyone that I was quitting the trial and that isn't easy, especially to my son. Nick wasn't very happy with me at first and I do understand his frustration. He thinks it's these new trials or death, it doesn't have to be that way I told him, look at this past summer, he wasn't buying it. He still isn't buying it, but he now understands that it has to be something I am comfortable with. I think he heard "quality over quantity" concerning life for the first time. Radiation starts on Monday, all the prep work has been done and they tell me the individual treatments should take less then ten minutes each time. A little skin irritation is all that I should have to worry about and they gave me some lotion to deal with that. Finally I am "home" getting care and getting help. Now we just have to pray it works. If not I am not worried, I still have my FDA approved drug coming end of the year and I can get that at home as well. It looks like I will make it to Sam's wedding .......I have to make it to Sam's wedding!!